Saturday, June 29, 2013

You can see the signs~ ;)

I have always believed that Allah is ‘speaking’ to us every moment in our lives. It is really up to us to choose either to understand or ignore the signs laid down for us. Yesterday was another day in which I was sooooo grateful that He had shown His signs when I needed them the most and Alhamdulillah, I had not put them to waste! :D Alhamdulillah

I am not trying to claim that I am a saint.. (nauzubillah hi minzalik. Minta sangat dijauhkan sama sekali perasaan riak.. ujub). I realized that I am far from being one. :( My point is, if we take the time to listen, we might notice His signs.. even if one is not a saint.

That said, I am not saying that I manage to ‘see’ the signs every time I want. Sigh~

There were several times when I was pushed to my very lowest point. Yes, you got it right. I broke. Honestly! During that time I felt super vulnerable. It was to the point that I was literally seeking for human touch. Have I regretted those actions? Sure 'do'! As in I still regret them! I blame none other than myself for making the wrong choices i.e. ignoring the signs.

By human touch, I mean assurances for human being. I seek them wanting to know what I should do. I want to be able to see that someone hears me out. I want to be able to hear voices advising me.. telling me what to do. Yes… yes… I am just a human you see. Sometimes my Iman goes up, sometimes my Iman goes down.

I knew I was impatient. I knew that Allah heard my cries. I knew that Allah is the only one who has solutions to my thousand problems. He might have shown me the signs. But at the time when my judgement was clouded by my Nafs, I saw nothing. I was lost. Let’s just hope that we will continue to be on the straight path and not be among those who are left astray.

Anyhow, I once shared my experience in which I strongly believe were signs from Him. Why I did that? Hmm.. well, I was merely trying to share the fact that we need to ‘observe’ the signs so that more people would benefit from it. After I finished talking, she said something like “well, that is just you trying to fit in everything with everything that happened. It might just be a coincidence.” She was not the first to say that nor would she be the last.

Perhaps she might be correct? It might just be a coincidence i.e. some random occurrences. But here’s the thing. If you understand the word ‘random’ itself, you would definitely do some musings.

In the past (and present?), we have read and heard claims made by some great atheist thinker who claimed that our universe existed merely due to random arrangements after the huge BIG BANG. In other words, they were/are trying to point out that there is no God behind the miraculous existence of this universe. 

Now, imagine you have nine marbles in your hand. Out of the nine, one is extra larger. Your task is to throw the marbles into a box all at once in order to achieve the arrangement of our solar system i.e. the larger marble representing the sun and the rest as the eight planets orbiting the sun. Tell me, what is the odd of getting such arrangement? And that is just talking on the arrangement. What about the composites of the earth? Could it be sheer coincidence that the earth which is positioned at the right distance away from the sun has ozone layers that allow beings to live on it? And the questions could go on and on…  

All that saying brings us to this - there must be a great power behind everything happening in this world. There is a God. And when you have agreed on this you need to understand that there can only be one God. If there were to be more than one God, then you’ll see chaos not just on earth but also in the heavens just as portrayed in the movies showing the Greek gods and goddess quarrelling, fighting, envying and killing one another. True, they are just movies but think again. :)

In the Qur’an, Allah says:
“Verily! In the creation of the heavens and the earth, and in the alternation of night and day, and the ships which sail through the sea with that which is of use to mankind, and the water (rain) which Allah sends down from the sky and makes the earth alive therewith after its death, and the moving (living) creatures of all kinds that He has scattered therein, and in the veering of winds and clouds which are held between the sky and the earth, are indeed Ayat (proofs, evidences, signs, etc.) for people of understanding.” – Al-Baqarah:164-

 Let's look for the signs. Both the clear signs and the hidden ones! :D

Thursday, June 20, 2013

Re-post: Morning crew...


This morning when my Yaby and I were on our way to work, there was an interesting topic discussed on the local radio. The two DJs asked for any opinion or comment on the topic - what if there's no more passion in your relationship? After a short while, there was a first call from an Indian guy (I think he's an Indian. I'm not so sure. He might be a Punjabi). I couldn't recall much of his saying but the thing that I do remember is he said that, "they are starting all over again from scratch. They gave sweet notes, gave her flowers and chocolate..." 

When he finished, I turned to my Yaby... "See, I told you. You need to give me presents laa Yaby". He didn't reply to my statement. After the first call, one of the DJ read an SMS something like "my parents married for 30 years now but they still walk holding each other’s hand". Then I continued, "See... we never hold each other’s hand before". Even after that, Yaby kept still in silence giving his full concentration on the road. 

Then after a couple of songs, there was a woman called in to give her opinion. She said, "When a passion dies, it will be replaced by something better". The DJs were curious and asked her what would that 'something better' be. And so she continued, "It will be replaced by love and understanding. And that is all about marriage". 

Finally my dear Yaby decided to open his mouth, "This is the best answer to the topic." I was left red face after that laa of course. Yaby continued, "Passion is like clouds..." and that's the end of the conversation.

Hehehe... that's why I love my Yaby so much-ie! 

-2005-

Friday, June 14, 2013

When flower blooms~

This post is dedicated especially to my dear student whom I shall address in this post as Flower (from the two letters at the beginning of her name, "Fa", which in Chinese means Flower). 

You see my dear Flower, I was once like you i.e. eager to have all according to plan.. wanting everything to be perfect. And just like you, I tried so hard until it exhaust me. 

But then I realized that I was becoming too rigid. In some sense.. too cold. 

I don't know about you, but the thing that made me the person I was before was that I forgot that we are living in a dynamic world. By dynamic, it means, we have no control over everything. 

It is OK to make some mistakes. It is OK to have some plan turned haywire. It is OK to have some people hated you for reasons only them knew. Who cares? Who are we to dictate their thoughts. And at the other side of the coin, who are them to validate you. 

Of course, we want a perfect beautiful life. Hands down to that. But my dear Flower, we are not living in heaven just yet. InsyaAllah soon. But until that time comes, you'll bound to run into problems or things you loath.

Yes, as a Muslim we must always give our 100%. But should any negative circumstances befall on you.. just smile and brisk it off your shoulder. There is always another time. Never.. never ever be too hard on yourself.

The only validation you need is from Him alone. If you remember that, you'll never get tired and you will always be happy. Even when things turned out sour, you will not be as devastated as when you are doing it to please human beings. In Islam, we believe that everything happens for a reason and for that reason too, we shall have no regrets! 

All the best dear! I love you! :-D Hehe..