Monday, December 19, 2011

Monday Blues~~~

There's actually nothing about Monday blues :P. Sorry to trick you into it. I promise you it will be very quick. The reason for this post is because of the urge of 'I-just-have-got-to-share-it-here'. Especially to remind myself over and over again laaa..

Indeed, the righteous will be among gardens and springs, Accepting what their Lord has given them. Indeed, they were before that doers of good. They used to sleep but little of the night, And in the hours before dawn they would ask forgiveness, And from their properties was [given] the right of the [needy] petitioner and the deprived.(Quran 51:15-19)
Yes Amelia... to sleep little. *clear throat*... But bukan sleep little by spending time watching anime ker.. or korean drama series ker.. the answer is on verse 18....

Verse 18 highlights the greatness of the one-third of the night "And in the hours before dawn they would ask forgiveness". It is narrated by Abu Hurairah r.a.:
Allah's Apostle (p.b.u.h) said, "Our Lord, the Blessed, the Superior, comes every night down on the nearest Heaven to us when the last third of the night remains, saying: "Is there anyone to invoke Me, so that I may respond to invocation? Is there anyone to ask Me, so that I may grant him his request? Is there anyone seeking My forgiveness, so that I may forgive him?" (Sahih Bukhari) 
You see~~ He is always waiting for us. To forgive us. I love you Allah!

And to the last verse.. since my Arabic is close to zero, I have also searched for other translations too. In one of the translations, verse 19 was translated as " give to those needy who 'asked' (for Sadaqah) and to those who did not 'asked' (for Sadaqah). Aaaa... if you haven't paid your Zakat.. silalah do so ye. Zakat pendapatan.. zakat simpanan.. zakat emas or perak... That goes to me too. Got to do it soon too. :P Trust me, you will never go bankrupt by giving your portion.  Instead Allah has promised to give you more in return. ;)

That's it. Back to work everyone... Enjoy your Monday! :D Told you it's going to be quick!

Friday, December 9, 2011


So yesterday, on our way back home, Insyirah, Ibrahim and I played the 'I imagine' game which was pretty much adapted from the 'I spy' game. How did Ibrahim play? Well.. I did the asking and the talking.. on behalf of Ibrahim.. :P

Not too long after that, Yaby decided to join in. And so he asked.. 

Yaby: I imagine... something tall.. orange.. and love to eat leaves...
Insyirah: GIRAFFE!
Everyone: Yeay!!!~~

Yaby: I imagine... something that lives in the sea... big and... and wear purple colour underpants...
Me: WHAT??!!
Insyirah: A PUFFER FISH!!!
Yaby and Insyirah: Yeay!!!~~

Yes yes.. I know.. I know.. where's the link to it? Well you see, if you have kids and have come across the 'word world', you might have seen in one of the episodes where the Duck trying to sing the twinkle-twinkle little stars song. But because, Duck was too nervous, he sang something like "Twinkle-twinkle little ANTs.. I'm wearing purple underpants..." (<-- heard Insyirah sing it many2 times and laugh her heart out). And so since then, Insyirah was obsessed with "purple underpants"!!! The latest victim of her somewhat crazy imagination was that to have a puffer fish wearing a purple underpants. And so, that is the answer to your query... hehehehe....

Friday, December 2, 2011

Good.. good.. good...

It's Friday!! I know.. I know.. the best day in the whole week.. :)

Anyway.. I would like to share something which I 'freshly' got from my usrah today. Allow me.. :)

Remember the famous tag line of; 
"sesungguhnya Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum melainkan mereka berusaha untuk mengubahnya sendiri.."
Before this, I have always understand this lines as - Allah will only help those who help themselves. In other words, it is you who determine your state of life whether to work for the greater good or the total opposite. Full stop. Nothing more.. nothing less. Who are with me?

But you see, in surah Surah Ar-Ra'd verse 11, it's translation says;
"For each (person), there are angels in succession, before and behind him. They guard him by the Command of Allah. Verily! Allah will not change the good condition of a people as long as they do not change their state of goodness themselves (by committing sins and by being ungrateful and disobedient to Allah). But when Allah wills a people's punishment, there can be no turning back of it, and they will find besides Him no protector."
I suggest you read the translation again. Did you see it now?

In this verse, it starts off by saying that for everyone of us, by the Command of Allah, there are angels guarding us in succession. It means that not for even a blink of an eye that we are left without angels guarding us. These angels are in front of us and behind us. After this statement comes the famous translation. Only now, we have to see it from a different angle. It says, "Verily! Allah will not change the good condition of a people as long as they do not change their state of goodness themselves (by committing sins and by being ungrateful and disobedient to Allah)". 

What it is saying is that, by default, everyone is in good condition. Allah has prepared us with His best bodyguard and giving us only the best. But due to mistakes that we have done whether by committing sins or just being ungrateful, then only we change our state from good to bad. In other words, it is by our bad doings which has led us into bad state.

I guess the only solution to bring ourselves back on track i.e. the good condition is by doing more good and seboleh mungkin avoid the not so good. ;)

Happy Friday!!! 


Important note: The first quote still stands as it is. Both quotes are to be used in a totally different contexts. ;)

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Bye-bye Friendster blog~

I just realised that Friendster has shut down which also means that I have also lost most of my blog entries I put up there. I even tried google and yahoo cached, but to no avail.. Sigh~~ You see, my BIL did say this once to me" K Amelia ada save tak blog ni. If server online off semua post K Amelia hilang.". I said 'most' because I did copy paste some entries after hearing Imi saying that. Aiya~~ Takpe laa.. nak buat macam mana.. Sigh~~ 

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Quick Post!

Who watched Tanyalah Ustaz yesterday??? What would be more interesting if you have actually watched it together with your spouse. :)

For those who missed out since some would have to leave home for work before 8am, the topic was on 'Suburkan Mahabbah (kasih sayang, cinta and etc)' between husband and wife. Probably if you've missed it and want to watch it, I think there should be the tv archive for all of the Tanyalah Ustaz episodes.

I couldn't agree more when the Ustaz described the responsibilities of the two parties. There was one story which the Ustaz shares which I found pretty 'amazing'. It was the first time I ever to hear it. Memanglah nampak gayanya I should read more books. Anyway, the story was about a man who couldn't bear any longer the lecturing of his wife. So one day, he decided to meet Umar to get an advice. As we all know, Umar was well known for being 'fierce'. When the man reached Umar's house, he saw Umar was being lectured by his (Umar's) wife. Seeing this, the man decided to leave. As he was about to leave, Umar called out for him and asked the reason he came. The man explained to Umar of his intentions of getting advice on how to stop his wife from lecturing. Hearing this, Umar answered (allow me to write of what I remember in Malay as the Ustaz had expressed in the show ye.. hehe); 
"apa salahnya mendengar apa yang mereka ingin katakan. Dialah yang telah menjaga makan minumku, tempat tinggalku, pakaianku, mengandung dan menjaga anak-anakku..
How sweet of Umar is that???!! :D

I have actually tried to search the full version of this hadith but have not found it. If I am not mistaken, the Ustaz mentioned it was reported by Abu Dawud. I'll include it in this post later when I bumped into the hadith insyaAllah.

In the end, the Ustaz concluded the topic in three main points;

  1. Be a good listener
  2. Learn to appreciate
  3. Praise your partner
It is always nice to be reminded on this matter every now and then kan? Especially on the lecturing part :P HohoHOHOHohohOHOHOHoho :P

Monday, November 21, 2011

My Birthday Entry~

Is that time again! Happy birthday to me! :) Thank you all for all the Doa and birthday wishes! :D

As usual, I have always used this time of the year to ponder on what I've done so far... all the good, the bad and ugly... :P

Since this would be my last birthday entry before I will say bye bye to number '2' and hello to number '3' (my.. my.. my.. I am THAT old), I should make it somewhat unforgettable. Chewah! HohOoHOhohoHO...

Many have happened over the past one year. From having Ibrahim to moving to our own place to having my first batch of students and to finally getting the PhD. Those were some of the UP moments. There is one other which ultimately the highlight of my year.

What was it? Unfortunately I couldn't share the story with all of you. But what I could do is to share the lessons I've learnt from it.

As Allah has promised in His Holy Book in Surah Al-Baqarah verse 286;
Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned...
I first heard of the sad news in 2004. I was only a few weeks after coming back from the UK for good when I received that grieving call. It was heartbreaking and I must say that I too was shattered as much as the people involved... especially when it happened to the people close and dear to you. During that hard times, I had seen how fragile human can be without His guidance. At the verge of hardship, one's heart could easily waver and break. But with His help and blessing, the selected few gain strength and continue to be at peace. What took place also shows me how greed and lust could take everything that is good and destroy happiness. It also opens my eyes on how much we should always put Allah's love above all. Never ever ever ever on anything else.

Alhamdulillah, mid this year, I celebrated the good news. They have been hopeful and waited 8 years for the great news to come. I must say that I witnessed the truth in Allah's words when He said;
And when My servants ask you, [O Muhammad], concerning Me - indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided. - (Al-Quran 2:186)
He reiterate the above point LOUD and CLEAR again in Surah Ghafir verse 60 ;
And your Lord says, "Call upon Me; I will respond to you. ..."
for we are only human and without His help we human could only do so little. And how do we ask for help? Yup, by continuously making Doa. He might not answer your prayer immediately, but insyaAllah in time, it will surely come. Have faith. ;)

Last but no least, I also learnt that no matter what happen to us, be it good or bad, it is from Allah for a reason. Not to weaken us but to strengthen us. And yes, to never ever ever ever bersangka-buruk to Him since He will be what we expect of Him. If you think good of Him, that's how He'll be and vice versa.

I guess, this will do laa kan. Hehehe.. Thank you again for all your lovely wishes and Doa! XOXO~

Ya Allah, kami bersyukur atas segala nikmat dan kurniaan yang Engkau telah berikan. Kau tetapkanlah hati-hati kami ini pada jalan yang lurus. Matikanlah kami ketika mana kami berada dalam sebaik-baik Iman ya Allah. Sesungguhnya ibadah kami, hidup kami, mati kami hanya kerana-Mu ya Allah. Amin amin amin Ya Rabb alamin...

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Love YOU!

At Cherating IEEP2011
This is a late entry. Ibrahim turned ONE two days ago! He's ONE!!! Ummi loves you Ibrahim!!!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

From me to you...

Last Friday I was in a bad shape and had to stay in. But the good thing was, I had a chance to finally watch the Oprah Winfrey farewell final episode.

I remember watching Oprah as a kid. Like many, I found most of her show very interesting and have always been looking forward to the next week's episode.

One of her final remarks that comes to me as a clear shot straight to the bull's eye was when she said something about 'validation'. She said that in all of her shows, there is one thing in common that is - we all wanted validation. Quoting her, "...They want to know, do you hear me? Do you see me? Does what I say mean anything to you?..."

I first realised this back then when I had a chat with my elder sister when I was abroad. As usual, family chat could go from one end to another and so I couldn't realy recall how we came out with the point. My dear sister, one very observant sister, said that she realised that I had always been doing something to prove something to my dad. She then start with all the "do you remember when.." until she thought she had said enough to make her point loud and clear. I guess, I must have amplified my sense of 'in need of validation' without realising it. :p

You see, at the age of eight we moved to Klang. But Daddy wasn't always around since he was still working in Pahang. And so I only saw him during weekends or long holidays. Probably, I had been trying to achieve many things just to stand out in his eyes. Probably I have been craving for Daddy's validation. Not that Daddy is a wicked dad like in some movies who couldn't care less. I guess Daddy is just being a man originally from Mars.. doing a guy thing i.e. sitting in their own cave and don't really know how to show they care. Now that I am married, I realised that without a doubt Yaby's validation is what I want most. Obviously laa kan... Please la Yaby  ye, master the art of validating ye... HohohHOhoHOHOho...

It is just so true isn't it. To some degree, we all just wanted to be heard. To be cherished. To know that we are a valid friend. To be told that we have made up someone else's day. To have someone care enough to ask how we are doing with life and etc. Watching Ibrahim pushing himself forward faster when his named was called as well as seeing Insyirah drew even more upon receiving  some pep talk from her Ya-yah proves that we have if not ARE doing it all the time.

Now, assuming you have received validation each and everyday from your spouse, your parents, your kids, your friends, you neighbours, your students.. would that be enough? Hmm.. Hehe... it meant to be a tricky question. Now, imagine getting a validation from your Creator... knowing that your solat is accepted.. knowing that you are going to be with Him in Paradise... KAN?!!!  How great is that?! Hmmm... When it comes to this, we can only try our best and pray that with His blessing would could all secure Jannah insyaallah.

In our teaching, one of the many important hadiths is on Nawaitu i.e. intention. It is said that, everything you do comes back to your intention. We must always have a clear intention for one will receive what one has intended for. I hope that my Niat of having this blog has not been tainted. I must say thank you to YOU (you know who you are :D) for giving me your validation on this blog. I want you to know that I am very happy to know that you care to read and listen to what I want to share. I must say though, that all that is good is from Him and yang merapu itu are from my weaknesses. I know I can never match Oprah :P.. but with His help I'll continue to write.. insyaAllah...

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Quick Post!

Wanna guess? Judging by the appearance of this book, how 'old' do you think this book is? 
a) More than a year
b) Roughly a year
c) Probably 6 months
d) Less than 2 months

If you answered 'd' then you are right. This is all Ibrahim's doing munching his way through the book... :P Mak die tak bagi makan kot...

Sunday, October 16, 2011

What's youR doa? :P

Insyirah was lying awake before I performed Subuh prayer this morning. While I was berdoa, my dear Insyirah decided to follow suit. So she raised her hand and said this:
"O Allah, please make my Mi-Mi happy and healthy.. and make her a good girl... and please don't let my Mi-Mi smash my hands or legs. Amin"
 I couldn't hold back my laughter.

First thing first, just to keep the record straight, I did not smacked her hands and legs. What happen was, she has developed this habit of peeling off the skin at the tip of her fingers. In order to make her stop I told her:
"Insyirah, if I caught you peeling off your skin again, I'll take a long ruler and smack your hand"
I guess, she might be extra worried since I've added some actions together with sound effect while saying it. :P

Adeh.. Insyirah.. Insyirah

Friday, October 7, 2011

Where are you my Ustazah...

Although many agreed that we could get information from the web super fast and at the tip of our finger nail, there is this one 'scope' which I still long for a human 'touch'. It's on relating to Islamic knowledge.

With internet, I could not simply take the first answer found by the search engine. In other words, the internet could not directly give me answers. Firstly, I have to be very sure of the source.. who are they, is there any nas to support the comments. Secondly, you know with matters relating to religion, each time you ask a question, usually after getting a reply, you would have something else that come to your mind that you need confirmation or validation. And this is where internet failed me the most. Sigh~

I don't know about you, but I felt somewhat lost. Yes truthfully, I missed having Ustaz or Ustazah around whom I could bombarded with issues that I am having. As of last week, I became obsessed with the idea of how much handicapped I have become not having the liberty to have someone to answer my questions. It's killing me!!! Oh how I miss my Pendidikan Agama class hour! Not literally but as in having someone to fill me in. I felt that my knowledge in Islam has long been in the same level if not worse - deteriorating. Nauzubillah...

O Allah, please guide us all and continue to give us the chance and the drive to continue seeking for Your knowledge...

ps: After the last post that I published on Chuppa, it is sad to announce that a week after Chuppa was released from the ward, it passed away. 

Monday, September 5, 2011

Quick post

You see, there was once when 6 cats ruled Ummi's backyard. It was not long before one by one was either pass away or gone missing. There are only 3 left. 

My dear Insyirah had one incident with one of the cats named Dolly. From time to time she would asked her Nek Lin of the cats whereabouts especially Dolly's though we have repeated to her many times that they are now have gone missing.

So last Saturday during Hari Raya holiday, my dear Insyirah asked the same question again:
Jia: Nek Lin.. where is Dolly? Where is Ma-yi-yo?
Nek Lin: Dolly and Mayo are missing.
Me: They are in heaven now Jia..
Jia: Hmm.. what?
Me: They are in heaven Jia. Do you want to go to heaven?
Jia: No Mi-Mi! I don't want to go to heaven.
Me: Why??!
Jia: Because I am NOT a cat.
Adeh~ of course we all burst out laughing. Sakit perut. Hearing her answer makes me realised that I have not tell her the other 'side' of the stories. Will have to tell her soon. :)

Chuppa was warded on the same day... get well soon Chuppa!!!

In loving memory~ Dolly sleeping very very very close to Mayo's bottom. huhuhu... 

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Eid 2011~

In a few more days, it's going to be RAYA! Dah makin besar ni, it occurred to me that I am with mixed feelings - sad and happy. Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to wish all my Muslim readers Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir and Batin. :) Before I wrapped up this entry, I shall leave you guys with two stories which pretty much related to the whole event of Eid i.e. forgiving and visiting one another. And with that, Eid Mubarak! Enjoy the holidays with your loved ones under the blessing of Allah. Hugs! Oh yes, to Chezel, don't forget the Sudirman song OK :P.

Narrated Abu Hurairah R.A:
“One day, Rasulullah SAW was sitting in a gathering. Suddenly, Rasulullah smiled until his front teeth became visible. Then the Sahabah asked “Ya Rasulullah, why are you smiling?”. Rasulullah SAW answered: “I saw two men from my ummah, kneeling in front of Allah. The first man said: “O Allah! I wish to claim what is persecuted by him!” Then Allah said to the second man: “Return what has been taken from him!” The second man answered, “There is nothing left of me O Allah.” And so, the first man said, “Let him carry my sins away from me.” Said Abu Hurairah R.A., “At one point while telling the story of these two men, Rasulullah SAW was in tears and Rasulullah SAW said, “That day will be a big day. On that day, people would want others to carry their sins away from them”. After that Rasulullah SAW said, “Then Allah said to the first main that was persecuted and seeking for his rights: “Try raising your head, look at the heaven above you!” The first man lifted up his head. Then he saw the Allah’s great bounty. And so the first man asked, “O Allah, for who are all these?”
Allah answered: “For those who is willing to pay for its price!”
And the first man asked to Allah: “Who is willing to pay for it O Allah?”
Allah answered: “You!”
The first man asked: “What is the way?”
Allah answered: “By forgiving your brother.”
The first man said: “I forgive him O Allah!”
Then Allah said to him: “Take your brother by his hand and lead him to heaven together.”
Later Rasulullah SAW said, “Because of that, be afraid of Allah and have good tidings among one another.”
Abu Hurairah reported Allah's Prophet as saying:
"A man visited his (Muslim) brother in another town and Allah deputed an Angel to wait for him on his way and when he came to him he said: Where do you intend to go? He said: I intend to go to my brother in this town. He said: Have you done any favor to him (the repayment of which you intend to get)? He said: No, except this that I love him for the sake of Allah, the Exalted and Glorious. Thereupon he said: I am a Messenger to you from, Allah: (to inform you) that Allah loves you as you love him (for His sake)."

Friday, August 26, 2011

The wait...

Almost there,
I claim to gain it,
I've waited,
Shedding bitterness engraved. 

Almost there,
I hope to see it,
I've waited,
Wanting no more time wasted.

Almost there,
I trust to have it,
I've waited,
Yearning blessed days ahead.

Almost there,
I pray to keep it,
I've waited,
Dreaming love ever lasted.

I believe,
We are getting there,
God permits,
I don't mind to wait,
It is worth living for...

Friday, August 12, 2011

Twinkle little stars...

While I was at the hospital, I was left with nothing except Ummi's Tafsir Al-Azhar (and of course Ibrahim to take care of) to kill my time. It was not long before I reached the part where it tell the story of the famous Lawrence of Arabia and Syeikh Badwi. It was the first time I ever to read the story. Since it is in Indonesion, allow me to do my version of the English translation. So here goes...
Lawrence and the old Syeikh Badwi were sitting outside their camp. There were twinkling stars scattering in the midnight sky. The stars felt close-at-hand as there were no clouds to conceal them. Lawrence who mastered the Arabic language including the dialect of the Badwi people began chatting to the Syeikh Badwi describing the Western invention and development. He described the invention of the telescope that allows human to see stars that is 100000 and even 300000 light years away. He included that there was nothing more that the Western didn't know. After listening to everything, the Syeikh Badwi gave a reply in which left Lawrence to a complete silence. Lawrence had the answer recorded in his journal. The Syeikh said, "I know, you Westerners have managed to count the stars. I wonder how many there are. But you never see 'Who' is behind those shining stars. You never speak of God. While we the Arabs, though we could only see a few, we always remember 'Who' is behind those stars." (Tafsir Al-Azhar, Juz 4, Ali Imran 104)


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Learn the hard way...

I just don't get it. Sigh~ These people.. haven't they got enough lecturing from others to change? If only they show some effort to change or at least to consider what others have to say kan bagus. Aijooo...

Here's a fact. If it's just one person telling you 'that', then you can argue the nature of the comment. But if you made everyone go crazy and talking about it, then please consider the fact that the problem might be ROOTED from you! Trust me, you'll feel much better if you considered it. Why must go the hard way. Aijo...

One common behavior which anyone can easily pick out among these kind of people is, they are just too hard-headed to accept that by part and parcel they are the one causing MOST of the problems. And in soooo many cases, these people will then normally try to deviate the attention and to admit that they are at fault by accusing and blaming others. And last but not least, their final and most powerful weapon of all is in soooooo many ways they will try to justify their doings. Sigh~

Berapa kali daaa mengeluh. Not good for me. Smile Amelia Wong Azman. Smile~

To these group of people, here is what I am telling you. Firstly, I hope that you learn to listen what others have to say. You definitely feel uneasy at first (like I wouldn't if people bombarded me with my negatives. Nama pun manusia :P) but at least try to understand. Kesian kakak tu membebel tau. Secondly, when someone tell you something, it means they care. They want you to change for the better. 

You see, admitting to the problem is the first step. Without this step then you can't proceed to the next level i.e. to resolve. This is of course speaking from experience. Yup, I had my times dulu-dulu when agak degil to admit :P. But insyaAllah I am a changed person now and would like to pass on this message as a reminder to myself too.

With that said, since in just a few more days, we Muslims are going to celebrate the month of Ramadhan, and so may I take this opportunity to wish you 'all the best' in Ramadhan. Let's get your gear ready. There's a battle to find Lailatul Qadr up ahead. ;) Happy Ramadhan.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

My love...

My current lappy wallpaper.. di kala all stressed up, this photo never fail to make me smile.. hehehe

Monday, July 18, 2011

Fight back to school!~

Since this meant to be a 'come back' entry, I hope that this entry would have something to offer than just me talking about me. And yes, I miss you guys!!! :)

As of last April, I am officially a teacher. Yup. I had my first batch of students. A small group but enough to enlighten me. Enough to occupy me. Enough to become a practicing ground before the school will be reopened this September. Overall, it was fun though I knew I need to do more to improve and most of all to shift from just becoming a mualim to a murabbi.  

What is murabbi? While it is still fresh in my head, allow me to share with you especially to those of you who shares the same realm as I am.

Becoming a mualim is easy. All you have to do is, you go to your class, open your slides or start writing on the board and do the lecturing and let your students gain whatever knowledge you wish them to learn. A murabbi on the other hand, not only involve transferring knowledge to students but also to transform them having good adab i.e. values or morale. In other words, you don't just go to your class to 'teach' but giving 'tarbiyah' instead. Yup, I finally understand that the word 'tarbiyah' means a process where knowledge and value happened all at the same time.

"Do you remember all of your teachers?" one of the many questions that was put forward to us by the speaker. Though I didn't say out loud, I answered 'No'. Then he continued, "we usually only remember only a few especially those who touches our hearts most". I can't agree more with that statement. In my case, I recall especially those who have inspired me whether them noticing it or not.

I must say that my two hours listening to the speaker on 'murabbi' was the highlight of the workshop I had attended and it has indeed lit a little spark in my heart to become a murabbi. And yes to me, the speaker has managed to secure the murabbi title since he has touched my heart and aspired me to work on that path.

Is it that difficult to inspire? To me, 'to become inspire' comes in a very subjective manner. Hence, the reason why it can be soOOoooOOOoo difficult to inspire at least for myself. For example, one might felt strongly connected by a speech made by one particular speaker, but to the rest of the audience, it might reach them as just an ordinary speech. 

I have always believed that anyone can inspire. Not just the teachers. All you need is the right 'ingredients' at the right time and at the right place. More importantly it must come from your heart and that the intentions are clear. While I've made it sound simple, honestly speaking, I have scratched my head a few times in the last couple of months thinking how or what I could possibly do to inspire my fellow students. And I have wondered what I could do such that my dear students would eager to come to my class although the class starts at 8.30am. 

This is a challenge on my part indeed. To not only teach but  also to reach into their hearts. To inspire them to become a great engineers equipped with high morale. They say nothing is impossible. Hence, I am putting this challenge as one of my resolutions. And I am putting the same challenge to you guys. Ada berani? Hehehehe ;) Good luck!
The believers are only those who believe in Allah and His Apostle then they doubt NOT and struggle hard with their wealth and their lives in the way of Allah; they are the truthful ones [49:15]

Monday, June 6, 2011

Monday, April 4, 2011

My milk story~

Nowadays, my meeting with people will also mean me getting this as their first remark, "Nape dah kurus ni?". Okay here's the thing, first of all I must clarify that I am in no condition what so ever in the mood of dieting. Like most mom, this is all thanks to BF-ing. But that's not what I am about to write. You see, sebenarnye, I still have 'excess' at some places where I least wanted. But the thing is, people didn't see this since these cheeks of mine.. they are all sunken. Dah genetik agaknya. So, yesterday, I type this on the google search "how +plush +cheek -makeup -surgery". For those who seldom use the search engine, the plus sign means include the search with the word whereas the minus is to drop all articles found from the search which contain the word. In my case 'make up' and 'surgery'. 

To be honest the search results were far from anything that I wanted.

And so, I told Yaby about this. He's replied - "hmm". That's it. As usual laa kan.

Nak dijadikan cerita, I need him to get some milk from the store. He went and came back with 2L of full cream milk. But that's not the milk that I wanted. Hearing that he has bought the wrong milk Yaby came to me and said this;
yaby: Po, yasir tau macam mana nak bagi plush cheek.
me: .......... *<-- didn't say anything sbb kes malas layan. Knowing that mula laa tu Yaby nak mengarut to throw the guilt*
yaby: Awak minum susu tu, then kumur2 dlm mulut. Bagi semua lemak kumpul kat pipi.
me: .......... *I gave him the stare*
Adeh~ seriously???...

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

My Amanah~

It has been a while now since Insyirah and Ibrahim are enrolled at the childcare center not too far from where I'm working. It was also not long before someone pointed out an interesting question to me on the whole issue of sending them 'away' while I am at work. The question was, "is it the best choice?". Not that I have a choice.. or was there?

Upon hearing the question, it struck me. Have I been a victim of the man-made system?

You see, most of us went down the same path. First we went to school then to college. Straight after, went to Uni to obtain the first degree.What came next? The only obvious answer is, we find ourselves a job. One could say that getting a job IS the only fair choice.  After all, one has gone through a whole lot just to get a scroll of paper that endorsed oneself so that one could take that piece of paper to let others know that one has attained a certain level of knowledge.

I can't deny the fact that getting my first pay is one of the best moments in my life. Simply because of the thought that I could finally chip in for my family monthly expenses. I felt somewhat useful too now that I can give Ummi and Daddy something in return for all their trouble taking care and bringing me up.

Then I got married. 

But you see, because I have chosen the norm path, at some point, my career needs me to take up further studies. The way the system goes is, 'they' will pay for my tuition fees and etc.. but in return, I am contracted for some period of time working for them. Again, I thought it is a fair point since my career involve me knowing a little more than just what I have got from my first degree.

Things wasn't that hard at first. I only have Yaby to take care of. Although I know that at some point during my PhD years, I had left the laundry to later as well as cooked the not so tasty kind of food.. but things was OK. Kan Yaby? :-p

Then, things get more exciting - I have Insyirah. I have to juggle between life as a wife, a mother, a student and a daughter. There have been times, not once, not twice.. but more when I felt kesian nya laa haii kat Insyirah. She had to play on her own. Talking to the tele or her teddies.. It became more often especially by the end of my final year. How many times have I asked her to forgive me for not playing with her. :(

By September last year, I have Ibrahim to add to my little crowd. And at the same time, my years of serving the contract has begun too. Like they say, this is now an Amanah that I must fulfilled. I have no other choice but to send them at the nursery since there is no way I could bring them to the office without having a 'little' noise. HohohOHohoho...

Now............. a question that came to me in a flash is, my children are Amanah from Allah too. So, is by sending them in the care of someone else while I am fulfilling my obligation to the rakyat the best way to fulfill my obligation taking care of the kids?

Susah kan... To be honest, I really don't know the answer to the question. 

I don't want to be lost in the busyness of this life only to lose something more great for the afterlife. I pray for Allah to guide us all in our everyday lives. Amin Ya Rabb...

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Quick post!

I've just moved in to a new place. With no internet access, it means that my life in the virtual world will be limited. Kesian blog ni dah lama tak di update. Will definitely post up exciting stories about the move on top of others when everything is done. :D

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Flowery lessons~

The last time I ever planted anything with full care, attention and extra love was when I did my degree. Back then, as usual, when you are on your own, di perantauan, you will pledge to do anything to distract you as much as possible. Just to ensure that we won't be tooooooo home sick. 

In my college days, I was actually one of the members of  the GreenThumb Club. Not very much people knew this, including my family members. HohohHOHohOHO... During my time in the club, I did learn laa a few tips here and there as regards to gardening. :P

My first attempt was to purchase two flower plants from ASDA. The one that already have some flowers on it. Nama pokok, I can't remember. Since I have only dealt with plants that live in hot and humid weather, I AM kinda n00b in choosing the best flower that could last all four seasons laa kan. I did not do any background research at all. I was doing my groceries shopping, thought that I had extra cash and voila~ I picked two flower pots, one with pink and the other with purple flowers.

Aaaa.. here's the thing, came early winter, the two plants withered. I was kinda sad jugak laa since I've make sure that I've given enough sunlight and warmth. Bile dah mati baru I did some search and realised that they were both seasonal plant. Sigh~ 

Not too long after my flower pots were left with only its pots and some dirt, I got hold on a tulip bulb. It was a gift from Kak Nadia who just got back from her Europe trip. She told me that I should start planting it soon (it was winter at that time) to prepare it to bloom in Springs.

So tanam I did. 

In just a couple of weeks I could see tiny green shoot coming out  of the bulb. Giler excited I became. It did came across my mind  that just maybe.. maybe I could see my tulip bloom its flower even before Springs.

Because I was desperate to see it's first bloom (ni kes mmg jakun nak tgk tulip laa ni), I thought to myself maybe I could help to speed up the 'flowering' process. At that point, the tulip had grown many leaves. So here was what I did wrong. One morning, I'd decided to to water it with Ribena juice instead of water. Adeh~ yes yes.. you didn't read it wrong. It is 'Ribena'. In my mind, I thought if I watered it with glucose, it don't need to work so hard to produce glucose. And so the tulip could focus more on growing its flower. In just two days, all it leaves turned brown and there were many tiny green insects helping themselves happily with the leaves. Sighhhh~

I did realise that 'gardening' has indeed a strong connection or link to our lives. 

For example, nak masak you need knowledge. Nak take care of kids you need knowledge too. Whether you got it from words of mouth or through reading, we just have to get the knowledge. Without knowledge you can't even beramal correctly. I remember I did some solat sunat right after solat sunat witir simply because at that time I didn't know. Just like my flower plants, I thought they were the best of plant that could cheer me up every morning. But little that I know, they would withered half way through.

And the best thing that I've learned from 'gardening' is - THERE IS NO SHORT CUT IN THIS LIFE. Trust me. Konon-konon nak 'help' the tulip plant laa. But what I did was totally the opposite. Kesian the tulip... Say for example, you want to be rich so that you could help the poor. While there are the easy way to becoming one, apa guna if the money is not halal. And of course, more importantly,to me there is just no easy exit to heaven. In this life, you not only have to fight against your own Nafs, there are the Syaitan to double the trouble. In other words, you just have to work hard to find a spot in heaven. There is just no short cut. It's the price you have to pay for such great reward.
I wonder if I should start a research on how one could fast tracked the speed of a plant to grow their flowers. Hurmmm~ :P

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Flood everywhere...

When I first arrived in Brisbane in 2006, it was drought in Australia. Dirt were everywhere. Little green grass can be seen. Water restrictions was at its maximum which includes not being able to water the garden. Just a few months before we arrived, hurricane Katrina strikes Northern Queensland wiping out most of the vegetation and plantations there. At that time, the price of banana was at its peak at the price of 25dollar per kilogram. Imagine that. Each time when I passed by the banana stack in the supermarket, I would definitely remember the price of seikat pisang here in Malaysia. 

Alhamdulillah by 2008, Brisbane was at its best although I can't argue that some of the food pricing kept increasing. 

In a twist of fortune though, as I am typing this, most Queenslanders are worried and burdened with the thought of flood water kept increasing. We were told by the cabbie when we first arrived that Brisbane was once under water in the early 70s. And she continued telling us that it will happen again in 50 years time. Lest do we know that it has come sooner.

To all my friends in Queensland who are affected especially the Malaysians, I pray for you guys safety. Please take care.

Perrin Park.. the park where I used to bring Insyirah to play in the evening...

Saturday, January 1, 2011

The letter~

To my dearest children,

I hope you are all happy and doing great with work, kids and all that matters to you. I continuously pray for Allah's Blessing on all of you. 

In just a few minutes, it's going to be new year. Not that I urge you all to celebrate like everyone does. It's just that I thought that the new year could be one of the useful time to sit and reflect on what and how much you have done so far. It's always good to have the 'silent moment' or so I call. :)

I have always been doing the thinking on my own. Lest that I would open up myself and share my concerns to any of you. This year, I thought of changing my tradition. Hence, writing this email to all of you. And before you go on calling one another, let me just point it here that I am all fine. There's nothing to worry about.

You see, the other day, I recollects most of the events that had taken place in the past that until today could easily stir my heart and let tears of joy trickling down my cheeks.
When all of you were young, you guys were innocent, always cheery and forgiving. One time your eldest sister came running into my room after coming back from a quick visit to the market with your grandmother only to hug and tell me how much she missed me. And of course the time when all of you came running to the front door only after hearing the car engine to call out for me and waiting impatiently to give me those big hug of yours. Of course, like any other siblings, you guys did fight. From not wanting to share the toys to sharing the ice-cream. But it always was never too long before you would play with one another again.. as if nothing had happened.

Then of course, you guys grew up. From innocent toddlers to rebellious teenagers. Those were the longest years of my life I must admit. I am not blaming any of you for giving me the hard time. It is just a phase where everyone has to go through and I understand that. I might have just done the same too when I were at that age.. only I believe that it must have been less 'aggressive'.
In those years, some of you had conflicts with one another. You refuses to talk or to even smile to one another. Things get worse when you people started comparing and making wrong judgement when I intervened. No matter how many times I tried to convince you guys that I didn't favour anyone or take any side, you all wouldn't take my words. At times during that period, I had always felt that I have let all of you down for not becoming a better father.

But I cannot say that all were sour and bitter. There were sweet moments too. I enjoyed most when we would all sit down eating and talking. I know I never thank any of you for those moments together. And so, here it is, thank you  very much for sharing them with me. I always am happy when you people would open up to me and were not afraid to share anything with me. I hope you believe that I have done my very best to become a good father. You have all grown up now. Some of you even have kids on your own too. I hope you all would be a better parent than I do. If I must repeat everything again, I would do it with all of you and no one else.

Before I end this email, please accept my one advice in case you have forgotten. Always remember that family always comes first. Even after you have a family of your own, never break ties among your siblings. It's normal to have misunderstanding every now and then but remember that no matter how angry or how hard things could be between you siblings, always get around the problem fast. Never keep at heart. Learn to forgive and forget.

You are all dear to me. Thank you for all the memories. I love you all very much... with all my heart.

Ps: whenever you feel like you have no one to listen to, I am always there for you until my time finally arrive...  


Disclaimer: Ini definitely is rekaan semata2.. tiada kena-mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati. ;) Sekian... :)