Sunday, February 28, 2010

Quick post

When human behaving badly.. worse than animal. Al-fatihah to Allahyarham Syafiah Humairah Sahari (thanks to Zu's status I got to know about this news).

Right now, I have mixed feeling - disgust and sakit hati to the guy and kesian to Allahyarham. Yang pasti, Allah lebih sayang Allahyarham.

And of course a few days before there's the brutal murder of the Malaysian driver in Sydney. He was stabbed a few times and smashed with a hammer. Apparently from the news, the killer was the husband of the woman he was having affair with.

I mean what is going on with all these people. How could the murderer of Allahyarham Syafiah have a heart to do something like that? What's going on with the family institutions? Why must you have an affair with anyone?? And with a married woman??? Nauzubillah.. minta dijauhkan all the negative influence. Why would they go as far as to kill the person? I mean do you think you could get away with it? Kan dah sia-sia.

Adeh~


Wednesday, February 24, 2010

On the note~

Before I totally forgot to share about it, this is from part 2 of Aslam's class last Friday.

After the first part on Solat, the second part of the lecture was on Ayatul Kursi. I am going to have to make it in bullet points ye kawan2. ;)
  • I never have realised the significant of the earlier verse right before Ayatul Kursi. The translation of the verse is
    "O you who believe! Spend of that which We have provided for you, before the Day comes when there will be no bargaining, nor friendship, nor itnercession. And it is the disbelievers who are the Zalimun (wrong-doers)" - Quran 2:254
    It highlights the importance to give to charity from what was given to us by Him. A big reminder to many.

  • "Kursi", literally means a "footstool" or "chair". The Prophet Muhammad PBUH has mentioned that, "The Kursi compared to the 'Arsh is nothing but like a ring thrown out upon an open space of the dessert". This shows how great the Kursi is.
  • The Prophet PBUH once asked Ubayy bin Ka'b:
    “O Abu Munthir (i.e., Ubayy)! Do you know what the greatest verse of the Quran is?" He responded: “Allah and His Messenger know best."
    He then asked (again): “O Abu Munthir! Do you know what the greatest verse of the Quran is?" He responded: “Allah and His Messenger know best."
    He then asked (again): “O Abu Munthir! Do you know what the greatest verse of the Quran is?" He responded: “Allah and His Messenger know best."
    He then responded: “Allaahu Laa Ilaaha illaa Huwa Al-Hayyul-Qayyoom.” [Quran 2:255]
    Thereupon, he tapped him on his chest and said: “O Abu Munthir! May Allaah nourish you with knowledge!” - [Muslim]
  • The words "Allaahu Laa Ilaaha illaa Huwa Al-Hayyul-Qayyoom" summarises the Glory of Allah. It is repeated for the second time in the second verse in Surah Ali-Imran.
  • Allah has many names but the 99 are the ones that Allah has made clear. The translation for Al-Hayyul-Qayyoom which is "the Ever Living, the One Who sustains and protects all the exist" are the inclusive of all 99 names. For example, for Allah to See, Allah must be Living. (note: one should not literally take the word 'see' or 'living' when are used to described the Creator. it is not the same as the word living referring to we human beings.)
  • It is encouraged to recite Ayatul Kursi once you awake, before going to sleep and after each prayer. Again, to show the greatness of the verse and how the verse reflects on the Greatness of Allah.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Quick post

A photo which I took after I heard Jia repeatedly saying 'piggle-piggle' (iggle-piggle) and 'patta-patta' (makka-pakka).. Ni sebab kes takde baby sister or baby brother to play with laa kann... hehehe..


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lonely~
i am so lonely~
i have no baby~
to play with me~~~
lonely~
i am so lonely~
nobody but teddy~
all around me~~~
lonely~~

***

Friday, February 19, 2010

I want.. I need...


Yesterday, we got our electricity bill. I go - WHAT?!! If it's not because of the monthly consumption chart, I would think that I've been wasting a lot of energy lately. There goes a Bacarrat set. Sigh~~

They say the last few months for any research student is the most challenging.. yes yes.. I agree. In every way that is!

Put aside the crazy hours you have to spent battling to produce the best numbers, figures, sentences.. You also have to think budget.. Budget people. Of course if you are anak Tan Sri or yang sewaktu dengannya, then this is soooo out of the question.

Say for example myself. Since this few months will be the last, I am trying to get the best bargain for the items I am targeting for. Although I have a very-very-very long list, from sewing machine to kitchenware, I knew I could not have everything.


Alamak~ There's always this fight between what you NEED and what you WANT. At times I knew I couldn't tell the difference :P hohoho. That is trying to justify to Yaby why I need a brand new bag when I've been using Yati's dermalogica bag most of the time. "Dah, nanti beli bag, letak nappy Insyirah", are the words from Yaby. Usually, at the time when the desire or the nafsu came, I seldom looked at Yaby's statement as something positive rather an intervention to stop me getting what I 'need'. But as the bad-bad nafsu fade away, of course I know it is something I want rather than need. Hehe..


When Allah created human being to become the khalifah on earth, Allah the most Great has included two traits - nafsu (desire) and akal (the ability to think and reason). These two traits differentiate human being from the angels and from the animals. It is a fitrah that we human has. While we knew how human could perish because of desire, desire can be good too. Because of 'desire' we human wants to improve and to become successful and to help others and to do more good things. So we know that the good and bad are all constitute within having the desire.

But... masa sekolah dulu, I always thought to myself, why can't Allah just create human like the angels. Never commit sins and always abide to Allah's commands. And everyone will enter the paradise. Happy. Case closed. Then I got a perspective answer from a talk. In the talk the speaker mentioned that when Allah wants to create the human being, He wanted to make it different than what He has created. He already has the angels who continuously obey and exalting Him without fail. And so Allah gave human desire. But of course the answer is in the Quran:
And (remember) when your Lord said to the angels: "Verily I am going to place (mankind) generations after generations on earth." The said: "Will You place therein those who will make mischief therein and shed blood, - while we glorify You with praises and thanks and sanctify You." He (Allah) said: "I know that which you do not know". Quran - 2:30
Yup, a prove to the limitation of my brain... for only He knows the reasons.

But He didn't leave us just like that to crumble. He equip human with akal, so that we human could think and find a way to control our desire. So that we human could choose with reasoning which way is the best for themselves. And more importantly, Allah brings down Islam, the perfect teaching that could help us to control our desire. In my case, I definitely has to remind myself again and again that wasatiah is the key. Cannot berlebih-lebihan when there are still people around us that are in need. Adoi~ nampak macam senang but seriously susah. You will know what I mean if you ask an Ustaz or Ustazah the definition of berlebih-lebihan. Adeh~~ takut. O Allah, please forgive me...

So, to wrap up, it's Friday again and in a few weeks time, it's officially autumn! Yeay~~ sejuk sket. Happy Friday everyone~~ :D


Monday, February 15, 2010

On the note~

Yaby and I have always called Insyirah - Insyirah. Since we hope that we will pray for her each time we call her. I guess, it must have been too long for her. And so, a few days ago, she has started to called herself, Jiya. I've googled just to make sure it hasn't got any bad meaning should she continued to use it. And lucky enough, one meaning associated to it is "piece of heart". And an arabic word close to it is Najiyah which means "safe". So, boley laa~

To mama citi, it is not "shishi" tau. :P

**I've extended my search with various spelling, Gia in Itally means "God is Gracious" <-- so long as we refer to it to Allah laa kan that is. Jia, in Chinese could either mean "beautiful" or "family".

Friday, February 12, 2010

The goodness of smile~

For no particular reason, on last Wednesday I suddenly recalled one of my memories during my high school.

Unlike most of my friends who had the opportunity to go to Sekolah Agama, well, I didn't. Simply because of the tight budget Ummi and Daddy faced at that time. In short, we learned most Islam related teachings at home with Ummi as the Guru Besar.

Nak dijadikan cerita, it was finally my time to wear that bright blue kain baju kurung. Yup. I was finally in form one. Alamak~ now I recalled a mishap I had on my first day at SMPBK. LOL. Takpe, insyaAllah will spill it some other time.


Days passed by and finally it was my first Tafsir class ever!! i.e. that is much related to the Quran. After Ustazah S mentioned on hafazan, that there was 6 altogether that we have to learn by heart, she told us to open surah number 2 verse 201. Yup, the verse goes like this:
"Rabbana atina fid-dunya hasanatan wa fil ‘akhirati hasanatan waqina ‘adzhaban-nar" 2:201
Give us good in this world and good in the hereafter, and protect us from the punishment of the fire.
She also added that after 5 minutes, she wants everyone to stand up and read it without the text. Who ever failed, one could not sit.

Ok Ok.. here's the thing. I know to many the verse comes very handy i.e. read as a prayer after solat (although at that time I didn't realise it). The thing is, when I was doing my Dua at that time, I said it in Malay. And honestly speaking I have never made any effort to find the doa book and hafal all the good invocations you see.

So apa lagi. I was all sweaty and my heart was pumping so hard that I think the whole class could hear it!! Mana tak nyer, I was sitting at the first row, second column from the teacher's table. My favourite spot. Which means that I have less than 7 additional minutes to get it right before I have to recite it in front of the whole class and DID NOT get it wrong!

Why am I so afraid to get it right? Aaaaa... sebabnya, Ustazah S looks very garang to me. Takut kena rotan laaaa. Seriously, she hardly smile. I like her and I really think she's knowledgeable. But is she approachable? Hmm...

You see, I think those who has a profession which has to meet people on a regular basis, say for example, a teacher or even a cash registrar, is very important that they keep those smile. I know.. I know I am being unfair since they might feel all tired and all. But seriously, their cheery smile could lift anyone's spirit. In addition to that, of course it is good for the business.

I have a few times, a bit grumpy I would say. But this fine lady who's working at the cash register smile and say a few jokes and terus, I was all good again. But then there were also time when I am all happy, but when it was my turn to pay, this other lady would not even look at your face let alone to smile or say hello. Ades~ it's like stabbing a knife on my finger. Terus the first thing that came to mind was "Is it because I am wearing a hijab?" and my good spirit left me. I always told Yaby, that if any of my worker caught not interacting good towards the customer, will be fired immediately! Ahahaha... Itu pun if I have a business laa kann :P

As for being a teacher, I seriously think that one should be approachable. Not only it would make the class happy but also students would love the subject more. And honestly, at that time, after the recitation, although I manage to get it right (sbb under pressure), each time it was tafsir class, I would always have that cuak feelings. And it is suppose to be the best subject in the entire world! Sigh~

Tapi takpe. I know becoming Ustazah can be difficult especially when you have the responsibility to teach and disciplining the students. I still think Ustazah S is a good teacher. Where ever she is, I thank her for what she has given me. InsyaAllah I won't run away should I accidentally met her at a shopping mall when I am back home. :)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

It's Insyirah's second year~ :D

Dearest Insyirah,

Happy 2 years old birthday!!!

We all pray that you will grow up to be a happy, good and caring Muslim. May Allah bless you and gives you good health. Mi-mi and Ya-yah love you soooo much! You might not understand why there will be more cakes in the next couple of days, but please enjoy them. And make sure you remind your mi-mi to brush your teeth wokey~ Hohohoho

Photo taken by Anjas Asmara at Qaisara's Birthday party~



p/s: Insyirah laugh watching this.. hope you guys too~ :P



Wednesday, February 10, 2010

On the note~

Alhamdulillah.. complete a full draft. If I must describe my state, I would say, 1) rasa nak muntah tengok this komputer, 2) my eyes want more sleep, and 3) my body is lazy to follow any of my cleaning orders.

Hahaha.. really get to get myself back together. As for now, nak tido jap aci? :P

Friday, February 5, 2010

Praise be to Allah~

In PhD, fabrication of data or falsifying experimental result is a BIG a'a (no). Everyone knows that. Although I know it has become a 'habit' for most of researchers trying to publish their work in a conference would only display the good result of their implementation or methodology *clear throat*. So, that is part of the ethics in conducting research work.

But what about blogging?

I acknowledged there were a few times when my blog material was questioned. I am not quite sure if I've made an open statement about this blog. But if I haven't, here it is. What I have written so far and will be writing, and should it is associated with any event, are/will be based on my experience and my opinion. Hence, on my part... And of course not to mentioned the countless time when my integrity was also under scrutiny. But then of course, I have no right to change any people way of thinking. And what one think of me is no exception. But that's not what I am planning to write.

At some point, I would scratch my head and think, "Hang on.. I am not writing any masterpiece.. So why the fuss?" And it came to me. Maybe, they are hoping to read a more 'real' stories. You see dear, of course I have my bad hours. I didn't say my life is all perfect and filled with colourful rainbows everyday. Yes, I only share the good ones. Just because I've drawn a line on what I should be shared on this blog. Just because I don't want to become an open book. Yes, I would touch every now and then on what's going on around me. But that will never be the major part of this blog.

Speaking of which, if you are a 007 fan, you might remember these words "There's no GOOD news like BAD news". To some extent, I agree with the tagline above. I might be wrong but I think it is a part of human nature. Yup, the competitiveness... if positive competitiveness takper. The negative one is what we should be worry about.

Say, two neighbours, A and B, were talking to one another. And A was telling B that A daughter is very clever at school making the daughter very popular among the school teachers. Then B said, "Baguslah macam tu.". Honestly speaking. With the current mindset, I would bet, that B would have that little notion in B heart that B would also want B children to excel at school which could ended up B having a severe headache. Take again A and B. And now, A was telling B that A clever daughter's application to work at a big company just got rejected. Then B said, "Boleh cuba lain company lagi". But because, A always brag about A daughter's achievement, B might finally have the smirk behind B ears. There's no GOOD news like BAD news kan? LOL

Lucky our teaching teach us to be ikhlas (sincere). Ikhlas dalam ibadah. Ikhlas among friends. Ikhlas in everyday lives. If one is ikhlas, then you would be genuinely happy with others achievements. If one is ikhlas, then there will be no hasad (enviness). There is also one other practice that is promoted among Muslims. That is to praise not in the presence of the others. I couldn't find my notes on this and InsyaAllah would update this entry when I found the excerpts that convey this message. But what it is saying is that, by doing so it could help to avoid evil eyes i.e. envy among Muslims.
Abu Hurairah said that Rasulullah saw said : "Beware of envy, for envy devours good (deeds) like fire devours firewood". - Abu Dawud

Do not envy one another; do not hate one another; do not turn away from another; and do not undercut one another, but be you. O servants of Allah, brothers. - Muslim
But then of course, there are the envy that is allow in Islam,
Narrated Ibn Masud: I heard the Prophet saying, "There is no envy except in two: a person whom Allah has given wealth and he spends it in the right way, and a person whom Allah has given wisdom (i.e. religious knowledge) and he gives his decisions accordingly and teaches it to the others."
Having said all this, to those who have shared with me their thoughts on my blog, don't you worry. I am not saying that you are envy towards me. And I want to highlight it here yes I am a normal human being living and ups-and-downs life. Just putting the 'envy' part in this entry since it has strong relation to the discuss matter. Thank you for reading my blog and your critical view is always welcome :D.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Quick post - Updated

Update: Say NO TO BLOCKED NOSE

It seems that I might be having cold after all. My nose has become stuffy every now and then. In case you haven't found yourself a technique to fight blocked nose, I thought of sharing my method which I found during my long series of cold. So that you could all have a peaceful sleep at night and could focus more on other things rather than just becoming all tense up because your nose is blocked (hohoho.. I tend to be the green hulk especially when both nostrils are stuffed!! :P) .
The concept is the same like having a humidifier. So if you have a humidifier, you could use them. But if you do have one BUT your partner or someone else in the house would get uncomfortable breathing hot air, then I guess you might want to try this.

All you have to do is, find yourself a cotton cloth (which I would strongly suggest the baby's cloth napkin) that is long enough to be tied around your head and wide enough to cover from your nose down to mouth. Yup, tie yourself like those bandits in old cowboy show or like a ninja or.. like the women in the Arabian night you say.. aaa Correctx3... Then, rub some vicks on the cloth around the nose area. Try to breath normally using the other nose. But if both nostrils are blocked, just breath with your mouth. In a short while, insyaAllah your nose will be FREEEEEE~ hehehe.

The only downside that I could think of is the unseemly fashion should you wear it outside your crib! :P

Tapi if tak jadi for any of you, then I guess you have to find another way that suits you. :(

Okay people, back to work. Meeting coming up today! :)

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2nd Feb 2010

Adeh... since yesterday I am having this sore throat. Adeh~~ and the pain is coming to my ear now. Adeh~~~ Time sakit2 baru nak start beringat. I mean, masa time makan ice-cream, i ate as if I haven't been eaten for days. If ingat nak gosok gigi takper. I am not a doctor but I think this ice-cream eating plus tak gosok gigi is what's the cause to this sore throat. Adeh~

For those who might been thinking whether I remember to change Insyirah's nappy or to bath her or to make sure she's eating okay without Ummi around, hmm.. Boleh laa.. Insyirah is doing alright laa despite lacking attention from both her mother and father. Sigh~ Tak tipu, just a second ago, I've stopped typing because Insyirah asked for her 'bottle'.

All in all, we are coping laa. Thank you all for asking. ;)

p/s: will put more interesting entry soon. Ada dateline ni~ hehehe