Wednesday, December 30, 2009


I finally got to watch Malcom X yesterday. My personal view on his interesting life - A charismatic and intelligent fine man and was extremely lucky in the sense that I believe that Allah had guided him all the way to peace.

In his early days, he was a normal lively bloke who then stumble into the used of drugs.. then came his new profession - burglary. Not long after that, he was convicted and sentenced ten years of hard labour in jail.

In the prison, he met with a guy who's a member of the so called Nation of Islam where then he listened to the man's preach and which MX later decided to join and became one of the famous leaders in NOI. The NOI is a religious organisation which their main aim is to influence the black community in America to basically change their way of life and become successful. Although the base of the organisation believe that Islam is the remedy to all the problems i.e. prostitution, drugs, alcohol and etc, part of its stand is somewhat false.

As we have heard so much. Hidayah had come to many in an unimaginable way. MX finally discover that there was some elements in NOI which oppose to his belief. In his journey to find peace, he found himself in Makkah, performing his Haj. There Allah opened his eyes and he saw that Islam is not only for the Black community but for all. Upon coming back from Haj, he made an open statement that he no longer stands for the NOI. At the age of 39, he passed away before the eyes of his audience in Audubon only less than a year when he found true teachings of Islam.

From wiki -
In a 1965 conversation with Gordon Parks, two days before his assassination, Malcolm said:

[L]istening to leaders like Nasser, Ben Bella, and Nkrumah awakened me to the dangers of racism. I realized racism isn't just a black and white problem. It's brought bloodbaths to about every nation on earth at one time or another.

Brother, remember the time that white college girl came into the restaurant—the one who wanted to help the [Black] Muslims and the whites get together—and I told her there wasn't a ghost of a chance and she went away crying? Well, I've lived to regret that incident. In many parts of the African continent I saw white students helping black people. Something like this kills a lot of argument. I did many things as a [Black] Muslim that I'm sorry for now. I was a zombie then—like all [Black] Muslims—I was hypnotized, pointed in a certain direction and told to march. Well, I guess a man's entitled to make a fool of himself if he's ready to pay the cost. It cost me 12 years.

That was a bad scene, brother. The sickness and madness of those days—I'm glad to be free of them.
How Islam is the key to everything.. so long as it is in the Al-Quran and the As-sunnah...

Thursday, December 24, 2009

Quick post

It's only a few nights away before I will be in charge of everything by myself again. Adus~ Cuak pun ada each time the thought of it comes by. Ummi, if you are reading this, this is no pity attempt to make you stay. Just wanting me to be all prepped up. :P

I was reminded by many of how the last few months before submission will be a dead tiring and a killing moment. And so in the next 4 months please excuse me if you see me somewhat disarray or if I might not be answering any calls or not turned up on any invitations... sigh...

p/s: have a deadline due 1st Jan 2010.. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

Friday, December 18, 2009

Happy anniversary to me n yaby! yeay~

I haven't finished typing the title for this entry when I received a call from Zu. Thanks Zu. And Happy advanced Anniversary to you!! Have a wonderful time in Melbourne dear! :D

So, 5 years ago, I was all kusut masai preparing for the big day. One thing I got from my wedding experience is - I really need to have a bigger family for my kids. But that said, I didn't blame my neighbours. I blame it on myself for didn't make any attempt to knock on their door and seek help. I would always felt sedey but laugh more when I recall how both Daddy and I was working on arranging the table for my receptions. And the next second, I was on the chair making sure the khemah was all good. Then came to decorating the meja pengantin. Ahahaha.. adoi lawak2.. There were so much to do yet so little people. But yang penting, with all the kekurangan on that day, Alhamdulillah dah selamat pun everything and I am grateful and happy tak terkiranya that I am married to Yaby. Thank you Allah.

So fast forward, it has been five years. Ohohoho, definitely the asam cuka added to the sweetness makes a wonderful 'acar'. Like Nuha was saying in the car yesterday, "orang lima tahun dah lima anak" yet I only have one. InsyaAllah there will be more soleh and solehah babies to come. Amiiinnn...

To my dearestest Yaby, I thank you for your patience, your lovingness and practicalness although I would hope that you would be less practical with the gifts :P. Thank you for everything and may Allah bless this love of ours. I love you Yaby. Happy anniversary! :D

True, there is no perfect match in this world but I know we could try to built at least close enough to a perfect match - louPo

p/s: there was a delay during the publishing because the author was caught out reading her past emails. :P

p/p/s: Happy new year! :)

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Ketika Amelia Wong Azman watch cinta bertasbih~

Here's the thing.. I've just finished watching "Ketika Cinta Bertasbih". It's just superb!!! Far better than "Ayat-ayat Cinta" I would say.

My dear Yaby watched it two days ago and insisted me watching it too. And since then, he has been pestering me, wanting me to watch it immediately! As Yaby has put it, "cerita tu best giler!", indeed it is. Just for the record Yaby did say that he just can't wait for the part two to be released. And again, I agree! My God, it has a wonderful storyline.

You know how you sometimes scream in your head when you are reading a book or watch a movie of a love story genre.. yup, I have it the entire time! Even Twilight didn't manage to faze me at all!!

I seriously hope our teenagers will watch this. We just need more of Anna and Azzam!!! Portraying the best of Islam. If you haven't watched it, make sure you find time to watch it. You will love it!!!! ;)

I leave you guys with the soundtrack that wrench my heart! Sedeyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ LOL :P

Lirik Lagu Ketika Cinta Bertasbih – Melly Goeslaw feat Amee

Ketika Cinta Bertasbih

Bertuturlah cinta
Mengucap satu nama
Seindah goresan sabdaMu dalam kitabku
Cinta yang bertasbih
Mengutus Hati ini
Kusandarkan hidup dan matiku padaMu

Bisikkan doaku
Dalam butiran tasbih
Kupanjatkan pintaku padamu Maha Cinta
Sudah di ubun-ubun cinta mengusik resah
Tak bisa kupaksa walau hatiku menjerit

Ketika Cinta bertasbih Nadiku berdenyut merdu
Kembang kempis dadaku merangkai butir cinta
Garis tangan tergambar tak bisa aku menentang
Sujud syukur padaMu atas segala cinta

Lirik Lagu Menanti Cinta Lyrics - Krisdayanti

Sejak lama aku berdiri
Dalam sepinya rongga hati
Tak satupun guru mampu menjawab

Hanya padaMU ku bertanya
Lewat setiap sujudku ini
Siapakah nanti cinta untukku

Wahai PENILAI HATI lihat batinku
Nyaris bernanah karna luka tersayat
Merana menantikan kisah dan kasih hidupku

Rahasia itu hanya KAU yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

Hanya padaMU ku bertanya
Lewat setiap sujudku ini
Siapakah nanti cinta untukku

Wahai PENILAI HATI lihat batinku
Nyaris bernanah karna luka tersayat
Merana menantikan cinta dan kasih hidupku

Rahasia itu hanya KAU yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

Rahasia itu hanya KAU yang tahu
Namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
Namun harus ku ikhlaskan semua kasih cintaku

p/s: to my future babies, semoga grow up to be soleh and solehah! amiiiinnn

Sunday, December 13, 2009


Say one was born in a farmer family. Assuming every family member must carry on the legacy brought down in the family line. In this case, it is the farmer-ing thing. Now, some farmers have sticked with the old fashion way of farming while some have adopted new technologies onto their farms. And the most advanced farmers have installed almost everything a farmer could do and have also started teaching others on the importance of advanced technology. At the same time, these advanced farmers also encourage others to take up new expertise. So that many would perform a better job and produce more on their farm. Unfortunately though, the true advanced farmers are very small in numbers. Some who claims to be an advanced farmers are simply just not.

Now, it is up to every new farmer to be the best at farm. A farmer could choose to start changing technology as soon as possible. It is true that by changing and adding new technology on a farm, also means more hard work on the farmer's part. What a farmer could do is to start looking for the advanced farmers to learn from them. Another way is to read and understand the manual to grasp new knowledge and should become unsure of anything, a farmer should then consult the expert of the new technology.

In the farmers' world, it is planted in every farmer's heart to be the best so that they too could one day help and teach others on new knowledge and expertise. However, here is where some farmers think that they should only teach and encourage others once they have a huge flourish farms and have conquered every farming skills. To these farmers they think it would give a better influence to others. But some disagree to this. To them, the best way is to help wherever and whenever one can as long as it is the true farming knowledge.

And just like any other working prospect, among the farmers, some felt that their doing is enough. To them as long as they have a farm, that is enough despite how flourish is their farm. Some farmers become lazy and spent more time having fun. This trend is multiplying by numbers. Sadly too, there were also cases where farmers stopped being a farmer. These farmers have forgotten what they were born to become. And in the farmer's world, this is the worst that could happen to a farmer.

Most farmers agree that actions need to be done to curb these problems. They agree that these farmers need to be reminded so that they won't abandon their farms as well as to make them remember the purpose of becoming a farmer. They need to be reminded the benefit of becoming a farmer and that if they continue the way they are, they won't be having enough produce to live their lives.

While some farmers believe that this job can be done by any farmers where farmers should care for other farmers, some farmers thinks that this is the job only suited for advanced farmers. And so all they did is to sit and observe from afar.

-The end-

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Have you seen this baby?

Insyirah insisted on carrying her own wheely bag which can both be helpful as well as troublesome at times. :P hehehehe... This is taken at the Melbourne airport.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

The best remedy~

During my last conference, while waiting for the keynote speech to start, I was sitting next to a fine lady who is 1 year in her PhD quest. She mentioned that she has a poster to be presented that evening. And so, when I told her that I am in my final year and have a baby in my second year she went, "I am single and I still find it hard to focus on my research". She then told me one of her friend's jokes on PhD. The friend of hers said, "Make sure you get a wife not a husband when you are doing your PhD. You need someone to cook for you and care for you not the other way round". If it wasn't because I was in a room filled with intellectual people, I would have laugh my heart out.

Since I am married to a 'husband' and have Insyirah as well as home to take care of and no extra money to pay for a maid, I can only resolve to the wasiat left by our beloved Prophet Muhammad pbuh. Remember the time when Fatima was complaining about some house chores and thought of having a servant to help her. She mentioned the problems to Aisha' who then informed Prophet Muhammad. And this is what Prophet Muhammad says,

"Shall I direct you to something better than what you have requested? When you go to bed say 'SubhanAllah' thirty three times, 'Alhamdulillah' thirty three times, and Allahu Akbar' thirty four times, for that is better for you than a servant." Sahih Bukhari: Volume 7, Book 64, Number 274
I recall one of K Juju questions in one of our group seating a few years back, on how we could contemplate the true meaning of SubhanAllah when we are saying it. Like she said, it is easy for Alhamdulillah since we could connect it to ourselves to being grateful with what have been given to us. And as for AllahukAkbar, simply by relating it to the abundance of almost every existing in this world. At that time, when I did the SubhanAllah zikr, I too found it difficult to really embrace it. And so I thought maybe I could share it here especially to those of you who haven't found 'your' way to 'beriman' with SubhanAllah.

Since SubhanAllah means "Glorious is Allah" or "Maha Suci Allah", and so when I am doing the zikr, I would think of it this way;"Since You Allah is the Glorious one and Maha Suci, who wouldn't make any mistake, assist me in my everyday life so I shall make less mistakes... You Allah who is all perfect, hence, help me in striving to be a perfect wife, a mother, a student and a muslim..."

Oh look at the time, it's lunch time and I bet Ina is waiting patiently for me to go knocking on her office door. Till then. ;)

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Quick post

It's 3.58am... I mean 2.59am now Brisbane local time...

Before I came to login into blogger I was browsing the catalogue. Yup. I am still actually have some of the tabs left open.

Am I a shopaholic? I wouldn't say I am. But do I love shopping? Hmm... I would honestly say that it is building. Having Yaby would ensure that I would still have the balance right since he would keep me away from wandering too far. Hihi...

Anyway, it's the time of the year again when people will be seeing with massive amount of shopping bags and of course the once or twice occasions when you felt that you've bumped one another before and your head just went "de javu" but can't remember for sure. Yup. It's the Christmas sale.

I just went from "Nak! Nak!" to "Shoot! Where should I go first, Target or BigW?". But the thing is, I am having a conference right now. :( On the positive side, I have finished my presentation yesterday which I think I did quite well.

I did stare hard into my timetable again just to see if I could make a quick dash to any of the nearby store. And I might just found the time to do so. That is of course, without Yaby to say "Tak payah laa beli" having around which would increase the amount of doubt in my head or Insyirah that would mean I wouldn't have both hands to grab stuff. HohOHOHohohoHO.. <-- tetiba terasa kejam.

I know that I had to put something more fun than my previous post.. FAST. Just because I don't want my dear reader to felt how I bad I felt for too long, hence this merapu post. Hehe.. Thanks for all the encouraging words be it posted here or in the email or in the ym. I love you guys! Thank you so much. I am a whole lot better now.