Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Hmm.. which is which... Part 2

Some idiom related to "white":

1. as white as a sheet
to be very pale, usually because you are frightened or ill.
She was trembling all over and as white as a sheet.

2. as white as snow
to be very white.
His hair and beard were as white as snow.

3. lily-white
1. completely white in colour.
He marvelled at her lily-white hands.
2. completely honest.
He's not exactly lily-white himself, so he has some nerve calling her a cheat! (often negative)

4. whiter than white
someone who is whiter than white is completely good and honest and never does anything bad.
I never was convinced by the whiter than white image of her portrayed in the press.

Question now is, does Insyirah fits any of the idiom listed above? hehehehe...

Photograph taken after applying Insyirah with tapioca flour. Insyirah got measles since Sunday. This remedy work!!! A good suggestion indeed by Ina. Thanks!!! ;)

Saturday, October 25, 2008

We are family~

I didn't plan to do any work after subuh prayer this morning. In fact, I never expect to gain any result from my coding. :) Alhamdulillah...

It has been a norm where it's really hard for me to 'be' at my working desk for more than an hour (now) in the morning especially after subuh prayer. Usually, I only manage to press the 'ON' button of my laptop before Insyirah will start making that tiny cry of hers while lurking for her BM. Sigh~ huhu...

Anyway, after getting "MyRam - 0 error(s), 0 warning(s)" message on my *C++ compiler, I thought I should give myself a credit. So, I step out from my desk, made a few strecthes before slowly letting myself into the duvet between my two beautiful 'babies'. On my right was my little baby Insyirah, sleeping calmly though still having her fever. Cian baby ummi... While on my left, my dear Yaby. Sleeping soundly. I bet Yaby was in his deep sleep mode since he just made his way to bed while I was trying to let myself off Insyirah's grip. 

Within that short period of time, I felt a sense of gratification. Then, I felt at ease. I am at peace. 

At some point in life, we sometimes bound to find ourselves judging or comparing ourselves to others. Which is normal. Yup, it is in the nature of we human where we continuosly wanting for more. Never there is a pure satisfaction in our hearts. The one good thing about having this attribute is, only because of that, we human manage to achieve great things. From the invention of a light bulb to the construction of high rise building. All of these are the result because we human endlessly wanting to improve the state of ourselves. The only bad news is, sometime during the search for better things, people forget the one main asset in life - the family.

Couple of months back, I received an email about cherishing your mother. It has a list of what a boy did when he's happy and what he did when he's upset. In the email, it shows that the boy share his happiness with his friends but only turn to his mother when he has a problem. To me, it's a good of way of saying, "lets not do that. Why not treasure your mother more". And so, I thought it would be good to extend the idea and says, "let's not do that. Why not treasure our family more" since family brings a lot of joy in our lives. :)

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Love story...

Books!!! Love them!.. although clearly I've been reading less these days. :P My last attempt was to read "P.s I Love You" which I borrowed from Lyn but only ending up reading "Mother Goose Keepsake Collection" instead. Ya lorr... itu Insyirah want to read also maa.

Anyway, my favourite genre has always been rooted to the love story circle. Be it a betrayal between lovers to unimaginable sacrifices for the sake of loved ones... I love them all! :)Love... indeed, it's a subject I love to read or listen to.. but dare not write about. Simply because love is such a delicate subject. And because love delves in the non-physical dimensions, it then falls into the 'subjective' category where there would impossible to have 'the' one answer to define or represent it. And the other point why I'm avoiding writing on love is because I'm afraid someone would quote me in writing. Hohohoho...

So why now? Hmm... Just take it as a sign that I'm not feeling that good due to the pressing permanent head damage that has been taken place for more than two years now. :P

Well actually, there have been much talk on love lately. Among the latest were:

... Lovely marriage. A lot! Congrats to all newly weds! ;)

...Forbidden love. A'ha. One! :P

...Unrequited love. Hmm.. some. :(

...Searching for love. Yup. Good luck to all.

...Pretentious love. Adoi... God Knows~~

Our lives have always been a huge drama screen. Where each and everyone of us has some stories to tell. Although none of us can tell the ending to our love stories, there is one thing that's clear. That is, unless we didn't WORK on love, we couldn't gain anything from love. Hence, ...

... Lovely marriage. Need to BUILD respect, toleration and trust between couple.

...Forbidden love. FENCED oneself if knew the love is out of reach.

...Unrequited love. BRUSHED away the tears and come back strongly. ACCEPT it as part of what's Written.

...Searching for love. PRAY and continue LOOKING for that one true love.

...Pretentious love. STOP pretending!

Love is good. Love makes one happy. I guess that is why people never fail to give up in finding love. Because it is so worth it! :)

Friday, October 17, 2008

Hmm.. which is which...

Idiom "have a bad hair day":


1. to not feel attractive or happy all day because you cannot make your hair look nice.
I'm having a bad hair day today - I just couldn't do a thing with it this morning.

2. if a machine has a bad hair day, it does not work as it should all day.
My computer's having a bad hair day.

So, baby ummi, which one are you ni~~~

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Staying focus...

As I am getting older (seriously.. can't believe that I'm making my way up to thirty), I realised that it's getting harder to stay focus in my studies. And of course, those of you who have family and baby(ies) would understand better that it becomes twice harder when you (the mommies) are at home. Late night studies is next to impossible. Hehe.. betul... Not that I want to scare any of you who have family to pursue your studies. In fact, I urge anyone who has the opportunity to go for it.

When I became aware that I was pregnant while not even close to submitting my thesis :P, there were mixed feelings. Though I was over the moon knowing that I'm going to be a mom soon, I was getting worry (and still is :P) wondering if I could finish my studies on time. Yup, since it is under the scholarship agreement that I MUST complete my PhD in 3/3.5/4 years.

After 8 months of becoming 'full' time mother, a wife and a student, I began to pick up some points which I think could be useful to future mothers who wish to take the back-to-school shoes.

1. Try to have a daily target. First thing in the morning or before you left for home the previous day, WRITE down in your NOTEBOOK what you need to accomplish tomorrow. Yup, always have a notebook. While writing the task, don't be too ambitious. Stay realistic (hehe.. you will understand the importance of this. ;)).

2. Be in the office for longer period. Hoho.. seriously. Because, once you are at home, your focus will change. Betul... :)

and last but not least,

3. Making sure you stick to no.1 and no.2. Yup, discipline. :)

Next year, Insyirah will be coming to office with me. At that time, I might have other points to include. :D

Okes. Back to work everyone!

Friday, October 10, 2008

Show me the money....

Gone are the days (at least for these last couple of weeks) when the headlines were showered with news of the so called made-up-stories on WoT. Instead everyone was talking about the turmoil on Wall Street. After yesterday's plunged, I'm quite sure, many 'small' organisation in the world would become panic-stricken. What I did not expect reading is the rescue effort made by the IMF - NOT!!! Hmm... Of course, as the International Monetary Fund, the way they are giving a helping hand is to speed-up all loan applications made by countries that are facing funding problem. *sigh~~*

I have always got a summary on world crisis be it on war, economy or politic from Daddy. Every weekend when Daddy was at home, he would sit at the front door reading his newspaper. And each time he found some interesting news, he would leave that favourite spot of his, clutch the newspaper in his hand, brought it to the dining room (where we all usually lepak) and gave his best summary on the news he just read. Of course, that was what I like best since I don't have to go through the tiny letters on the arm-stretch-wide of papers. After all, who like reading news on world-exchange at the age of thirteen? I rather save the trouble reading the comic section of every newspaper. :P

The other thing that Daddy used to do besides giving us a summary was to single out any of us siblings randomly, and asked us to read out loud. And not just plain reading. You have got to get the intonnation right. Yup.. those were the days~~

Anyway, where were we? A'ha... on the Dow Jones. Daddy once asked me "what do you think of the economy crisis that's happening?". At that time we were in the year '97 crisis which took many lives as potrayed in the newspaper. I gave my best arguement. I couldn't remember all the details that we had gone through. But I clearly remember Daddy saying this, "You need to understand, that not all are in crisis. When someone is losing, someone is gaining.". Which is true. The 'money', which in this modern day is basically transactions of binary numbers, couldn't just 'disappear' from a particular account without ending up somewhere. And what I really want to know is, who is behind that 'somewhere'.

The thing about IMF, is not that I disrespect it's vouch to help countries in need. It's just that I appose their 'illicit' way (of course to them it's all in black and white, hence couldn't be unlawful) of taking control of a country through its interest rate. Like Daddy has put it, a country is no longer theirs when the country leader put a signature on a few sheets of paper, accepting loan from the IMF.

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Brushing off...

21 minutes ago, I was right here in front of my computer, log in into my YM, read the offline messages before replying to Lyn's messages. Then, I asked to be excused before going to the loo :P and later a quick visit to the bathroom to grab my toothbrush. I checked my email (while brushing my teeth) and later finish up my teeth+mouth cleansing business, wash my face, apply some lotion, did my prayer and tadaaa.. only to find out that now while I'm (barely) typing this (using my oily fingers), I am eating my Southern Fried Chicken. Yup, you bet, I have to brush my teeth again. Sigh~~

If I would have known better that in less than 5 minutes or so after brushing, I am going to mess my teeth with the so-called-finger-licking-good-chicken, I would have put the brushing teeth AFTER I had my chicken. Gosh! I need to do some update with my conscience. :P

Too many things had happened this year. From great to the not so good. And at times when the not so good occurred, I wish I could bend the time like Hiro Nakamura (though I admitted I am one of those skeptics in the whole time-space continuum relativity theory blaa blaa), visit the past and claim all which were rightfully mine. Taking the above mentioned situation for instance, I would create some signals which would force me to do my eating before brushing my teeth hence, reducing the amount of water, toothpaste and time required for the whole process. kannnnnnnnn. Hmmm... Then again, now that I put it into some thought, I might create a HUGE problem if I could actually bend time.

The other thing that I sometimes wish for if the not so good happened, would be the uncountable moments when I wanted to Shift+Delete-then-Enter a scene from the past. Hmmm...

Speaking of which.. I found it is quite ironic when most people and sadly including myself sometimes says "forget(in my case, 'delete') about the past" when the 'past' is the real deal that define us. Imagine not knowing who you are, where you came from, where is your family... Yup, we've seen how scary amnesia could be. In so many cases, the past i.e. the history has also proven to be a good reference in making sure we mankind did not commit the same error again. (A'ha, hopefully, I will not eat AFTER brushing again :).)

Having said that, as important as it is to digest the past, we should try not to let the past eat our future away. I knew of some whom denied chances of what's new because of something that took placed in the past. I just hope that no matter how disheartened a situation maybe is, we could all get back on our two feet to face the world again.

Gosh! Just look at my keyboard! Haiya.. all oily one~ I better clean up before Insyirah awaken. :) Good night peeps.

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present. - Oogway, Kung Fu Panda